~018 - [VIDEO] - post-port (retroactively filtered away from Amanda Young)

[intofireforever]

The "Laura Palmer" from port is a really lucky woman. Married to someone she loves, working in her dream career, mother to a child she adores...she's happy, and she has every right to be. I wish her well, and I'm glad I got a taste of what it means to have a good life. I even liked being older...it's something I'd never get a chance to experience otherwise.

I can only hope inhabiting her body didn't hurt her, the way the goddess inhabiting mine hurt me.

In any case, I'm glad I fled the party when Arthas started attacking those strippers. The other Laura won't wake up to find she spent the night in jail, which is good. I tried so hard to maintain her reputation.

[Private to Paddy]

Do you think we could meet on-deck? I'd like to talk to you. Bring some cigarettes, if you don't mind.

[Private to Parker]

Please tell me there isn't going to be any weirdness between us now.

[Private to Nathan, after talking to Paddy]

Can I stay with you for a while?

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[intofireforever]

Mm.

[After a moment and just that small, noncommittal noise, Laura stands; she's been sitting in the water the entire time, and it has cooled down quite a bit. She bends to retrieve a towel, and sort of wraps it around herself half-assedly.]

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[yourunichase]

[Parker watches Laura for a moment, not sure what to do. Then she just wrapped the bathrobe around her friend, and guided her in towards the main part of the bedroom.]

Want a drink?

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[intofireforever]

[She shrugs.] Water. Just water.

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[yourunichase]

[Parker got up and grabbed Laura a glass of water, and then she pointed to the bed.] Do you wanna lay down? I'll take the couch.

[She was completely at a loss now.]

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[intofireforever]

I don't think I'll be able to sleep.

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[yourunichase]

[Parker didn't know what to say to that.]

Do you wanna try talking about it?

[God that sounded fucking stupid. She was bad at this shit, so fucking bad at it.]

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[intofireforever]

[She sits on the edge of the bed and shrugs again. She's silent for so long it might seem like she doesn't intend to speak at all.]

He raped her, too. Before he killed me...to punish me...he raped her. He tied me up and stared at me while he did it, and then he beat her into a coma. Grinning.

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[yourunichase]

[Parker gave Laura space and she didn't say anything. At least she wasn't screaming; that had to be a positive didn't it?

There was a sharp intake of breath, and Parker wanted to find that thing and rip it's cock off and shove it up it's ass sideways and with no lube.]

Laura, he did it because he liked hurting you. I saw how much during the shit in the house.

[Thinking about the house made Parker's stomach flip over, but that was beside the point.]

He did it because he knew it would hurt you the most.

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[intofireforever]

I ran from James because if BOB found out about him, he would have hurt him to get at me. I didn't care enough to do that for Ronette, and she paid for it. It's my fault.

[This is probably the first time she's mentioned BOB to Parker, but she's so fucked up that she didn't even realize she used his name.]

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[yourunichase]

[Parker didn't have any idea that BOB was the things name, but given the context of everything else, she could put some shit together and did.]

Laura, you can't take the blame for the shit that he did. He it, whatever the fuck, isn't your fault.

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[intofireforever]

So much of what he did was my fault. He killed women who looked like me, because he wanted to be me and I wouldn't let him in. He kept coming back because I deserved it. He hurt the people I loved.

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[yourunichase]

Laura listen to me. Just listen.

[Parker quickly reached out and wrapped her hands around Laura's and looked at her.]

Is what happened to me my mother's fault because I looked like her and she died?

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[intofireforever]

[She jumps a little when Parker grabs her hands.] That's different.

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[yourunichase]

[When she jumped, Parker let go.]

How the fuck is it different?

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[intofireforever]

It just is!

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[yourunichase]

Laura, that's not an answer. You're taking the blame for something that isn't your fucking fault.

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[intofireforever]

You don't get it! He was right about me. He knew what I was even before I did.

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[yourunichase]

No. He molded you into that. He told you it so often it became a self-fulfilling prophecy. He didn't know, he forced you to be it. That's why it's not your fucking fault.

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[intofireforever]

Then I should have known that. I should have known and fought it the right way, instead of letting him do that to me!

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[yourunichase]

For fuck's sake, Laura, how old where you when this shit started?

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[intofireforever]

I don't know. I was so little that I can't remember.

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[yourunichase]

So you think you should have fighting before you could remember? No.

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[intofireforever]

I don't know. I don't know what to think!

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[yourunichase]

This is what to think. You think "maybe this fucker was a lying bastard who's wrong." You don't even need to think he is wrong yet, just that maybe he fucking is.

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[intofireforever]

Sometimes I do. It doesn't change anything.